Saturday, November 28, 2009

7 years!

I was 17 when my little sister was born...
The joy and pride of being the family's youngest snatched away from me...
While I was left dangling in between, the joy of having her around I could never initially gauge!

Now she's turning 8 this May... God how time flies, and I look back over the years...
And see the many ways that she has matured me...

From teaching catch to a toddler, to cycling to a 5 year old...
And then falling and laughing for an hour...
To keeping decibel levels down and ensuring that you never swear in front of her...
To not fighting with Mom and the older sister...
To understanding that that curly hair IS a way of life :-)

To seeing her get ready - enthusiastically, mind you, to go to school and come back and tell me that 2+2=4...
Discovering the joys of painting - the bedsheet and watching Mom get mad...

From trying to prove that candy bars and chips are equally nutritious as broccoli... to rediscovering your love with 'Tom & Jerry'...

How time flies... I write this and see the first traces age catching up with me... and I see how much my little sister has grown... and how I have barely managed to catch up with her :-)

She has a thousand nicknames, and while she'll outgrow them soon, she's always be my lil sister to me!

Hurt!

Am sorry to hurt u is all I have to say...
Maybe am scared or u r stubborn...
But am sure that u ask yourself right now - How could have I hurt u so much?
I dont know... I dont even know what I feel right now... its so impossible to define!

It seems like a tragedy, inevitable yet unavoidable...
While just yesterday it was love, today its a dream thats ending, a wedding beyond repair...
How could it turn out this way, it never seemed to be on this path???
I dont know, I dont even know where to turn now... which light to follow for all the stars I looked to for my path seem blurred and dim...

Let time be my master, my friend and my judge! I will wait...
This much I assure u, my arms will be outstretched and waiting...
My heart will yearn for its freedom, for u... once more!
Let every moment that I spend away from u be an unbearable pain… a slow poison…
Simply because I dont know how to live without you... this state of incomplete loneliness.

Sunday, September 21, 2008

Something about tonight!

Tonight let me flood my eyes with you...
Let me wash out every memory I have of u...
Let me break all those promises u ever made to me and I to u!
Tonight let me love u one last time...
Just the way I did...
Tonight!

Tonight, let me crave for u one one more time...
Let me cry... just this last time...
Let me touch u, one kiss is all I ask,
Let me lose my thoughts, my mind, my love, my pain, my tears & my hurt in you...
Just one more time...
Tonight!

Because tonight, sleep will evade me...
tonight my passion for u, your smile, ur fragrance will not let me be...
Let me dream of u... just once more tonight!

Tonight... for the last time, I want to tell u...
I love u!

My true love - My madness

Darkness, clouds, dreams and madness...
What have I made of myself... I'm in love wid my sadness...

U ask me... how I love thee?
I love thee wid all my heart...
Thee, to whom I've given my soul...

U ask me... how much I love u... let me answer u today...

I love u when u are with me... for it makes me complete...
I love the pain, the longing and the despair... wen u r not wid me, when I am alone...

Isnt it strange? I'm in love when I am sad... Isnt it just so stupid or am I just mad?

Whether its for the bad or the anvil of happiness... what do I say to u... that I am in love with my sadness?

Cherish is what I will do with ur memories... and oh yes, ur name I can never forget, no matter how much I try...

I tell my heart not to weep or cry... for even without you my love will show itself in my sadness... the birth of u - my true love... MY MADNESS!

Friday, July 4, 2008

My experiences in trying to love!

I tried to write your name on the sand... but the water then washed it away...

I tried in vain to mark your footsteps... but the wind did not let them be...

I tried to paint you in my imagination & keep it there... dont know why the colors did not last...

I tried to imbibe you in my thoughts & actions... encompassing all of you... but they wandered off... leaving me wondering!

I tried to cherish you... frozen in a moment in time... but it was'nt to be...

Finally, I wrote your name on my heart... & there it stays safe... from people, intruding thoughts, moods of anger and unfulfilled dreams... it stays unsullied forever!!!

Thursday, April 10, 2008

What if every wish came true!

If every wish came true
Then every star would be a reality…

Something u can touch
And something that would belong to you

But now I know that wishes cant come true
Because each star is in its own unique…

Some are brighter… some more intense
And some that just fade away into darkness…

If every wish did come true
There would be no tears and no screams…
No vandalized thoughts… and no painful cries!

But what my dear is life that gives you all on a platter…
All that’s difficult to attain is easy to keep and all that’s easy tough to maintain…

Fragile emotions and unhappy thoughts show a weak character, lack of trust…
And all that is weak should be cut away from you…

If only all wishes could come true…
I would’nt be here writing this and asking you to read…

‘Tis the happiest tragedy of life that all wishes do not come true!

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

The one I love!

She’s right there…

Sometimes like water… pure and clean…
Sometimes so dense that light bends around her…

Sometimes like a baby… asking to be loved…
Sometimes strong… strong like the phoenix metamorphosing from the ashes…

Sometimes helplessly naked…
Sometimes embodying strength that only pure character can lend…

Sometimes laughing that makes you go dizzy…
Sometimes flirtatious till your knees give way…

Sometimes crazy and mad…
Sometimes exceptionally lonesome and sad…

Yet always so beautiful… so impure… yet so perfect… so lost… yet so lovable!

That is the one I love!